Wednesday, March 31, 2004
i am now in class at itab. learning access. chim. hmm.. later still have a make up class. stats. boring lah.i dont seem to understand a single thing about stats. i missed my econs lect cause i woke up late today. yesterday night my boyfriend and i had another unhappy time again. talking about anything... i wanna say sorry about the shoes thing first. i really woke up very late these days, very tired. maybe cause i have become very lazy, very stress till to the extent that i want to sleep and not waKE up. sorry. i am really sorry about the shoes thingy.
wah... now i am really starting to think, whether 2 people love each other be together yet not happy, should the relationship still carry on? i am really thinking about this question. perhaps 2 people that love each other are happier without being together? i really dont know.
at this minute, my boyfriend just messaged me. a lot of communication breakdown. i am now having a 5 ten mins break from the ITAB class. and i dont know why i dont feel happy at all. perhaps the beginning of the relationship was ok. but i think... its very hard. perhaps my this relationship is not cut out to work. being honest is wrong, not being honest is also wrong. what should i do... another message came in. if i was at home, guess my tears would have fallen. people around me are concern, but i dont open up to them. maybe i can open up to you... if u dont mind listening...?
i recently also very pissed off with people around me. lamers or whatever. sometimes its so irritating to be online. i put on awaY MODE cause i dont wish to talk or be disturbed, so sometimes is cause i am busy. but then i think my away seems to be online to everyone. haha. so sad. i think my boyfriend doesnt understand me. i told him, that if he doesnt know what i like its ok, but he must at least know what i do not like... right? makes sense? if he doesnt even know what i dont like... and everything he does is things that i dont like... then how is the relationship going to work...
at first i thought maybe taking a break to miss each other and let things cool off will do some good. but in his taking a break means to consider breaking up. so sad... now.. i dont even know whether we are going to take a break soon or not... all i know is,... my heart is crying and my eyes are wet. i really wish to cry out loud if i wasnt in class now. you know how sad i am now... *teary*
gtg. teacher came to my desk le.
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 2:06 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
hai.. dun think so much lah.. now the both of you okay already rite??? so be happy again lah.. hehehe... i actually manage to do very well for my access test.. i got 14/15... hahaha.. the teacher say the figures wrong never mind lah.. so long the formula and i understand it can already lah... coz after i pass it up... he ask if know what is wrong with yr mistakes already and i tell him i understand and know.. he give me all the marks except for one.. coz that wan too obvious the mistake... hehehe....
so tired man.. juz reach hm say got half an hr... went to raffles city to collect my god-brother birthday cake... hehehe.. the cake is so nice and it is also so heavy!!! hahaha... so tired man.. tml still have presentation and i haven prepare and get ready for it yet... hahaha... hopeless lah me... no hope already.. hope everything goes well tml lah.. then no need to worry anymore... hehehe.... after that i got 2 more projects to hand in... 1 this week and another next week... then after that will be exams liao... exams start on the 19 april for me and end on 23 april... hai.. so sianzzz... and i haven even start to do my revision man...
so piss off with myself and everybody around me these days... they juz cannot meet up with deadlines and keep complaining that others dun meet up with deadline... argh!!! cannot take it anymore... dunno why i make myself suffer by coming back to school to study man!!! argh!!! so hate myself and so hate school!!!!!
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 10:11 PM
ahh.. dont talk about test le. i have failed all my test. never even passed a single one. i am now having A STATS break. lab lesson. sucks. school sucks. i hate school. getting more and more sick and tired of my life. tired of studying, tired of doing homework. nevre have i thought i would become like that someday. so sucks.
and now i dont know what is wrong with him. today we are just just jsut so so so unhappy. i think something is wrong somehow. i dont know what to do or what to say. what i do and say is like all wrong. i really so so so fan. i think i am very tired of everything. today i am so so so fan...
i never had a day worse than this before. its so sucks. in school everything keep failing... even my lunch today that i usually eat in school... sucks. i wonder why.. ok.. my teacher is back again. sian... today is such a terrible day..!!!
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 4:22 PM
argh!!! dunno how to do the mbs test!!! but then still manage to get 14/15.. hahahaha.... not very the same as it should be lah... but then my teacher who mark the paper is very kind lah.. so only deduct 1 marks.. hehe...
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 3:43 PM
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
hey.. glad to know u passed ur test. i failed mine. anyway.. dont talk about it already. i know i fail le.
hey common... i not busy with boyfriend till never blog. is i busy copying things till i didnt have the time to blog. please forgive me ok. i went for an operation to remove my teeth le. now on mc. hee.
hmm... sorry la... i really dont mean to have boyfriend and neglect the blog or neglect u ok? see i'm bloggin nw ah.. now that i have got an mc. hmm.. how have you been?
for me i am quite happy. he accompanied me there yesterday to get my teeth done. i took my teeth back. quite er xin cause got a big piece of my gum attached to my teeth. haha... anyway... he was really there for me.. made me so happy. and i went in... when i was out.. haha. guess who i saw? i looked for him.. and looked at him... and next min i turn, i saw my mum was there smling asking me ok or not.. haha. and he and my mum had a chat while i was inside. wohoo.. so funny. felt so xing fu that moment. heehee.. hmm..
would u mind if next time i blog and write all the ai ai stuff here ? haha... if u dont... i shall blog very often haha...
anyway... dont so stress. i know u are very busy studying and rushing all your projects and work right? please do take care of yourself and dont so stress okie! hope to see you blogging again! hee. byezz
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 7:37 PM
wow!!! i actually pass my UIR Test!!! haha.. 17.5/30!!!
hahahaha
wat a surprise!!!
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 10:20 AM
Monday, March 22, 2004
now in school.. having access mock test.. hehe... still manage to do it lah.. hahaha.. not too bad.. next week is the official test already.. hahahaha... lame man... cannot take it.. this week have to hand in principle of management project.. next week have to hand in macroeconomics project and next next week hand up using the internet as a research tool project.. hai... so hard life i have man...
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 3:19 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
morning.. juz droping by to say hello... hehe... now having my UIR CDS lah.. lab... so in the computer lab loh.. hahahaha....
well.. keep u up to date on some information... manchester united draw with porto fc this morning 1-1... they are knock out of the champion league on aggregate 2-3... so i dun think they will be able to win any trophy this season unless they are able to beat arsenal in the FA CUP semi-final lah.. hehehehe... i think that is quite hard leh... coz arsenal are doing very well this season and i think that they will be able to keep their unbeaten run even... and be the first team to be unbeaten in the whole season... hahahaha....
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 9:54 AM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
hello... so how have school been for you? use to it already.. after one week of holidays.. really really dun feel like going to school rite??? hahaha... hai~~ me also lah.. some of the days.. i still feel this way... hahaha....
very sianzzz lately... got a lot of friends feeling troubled... BRG lah... and maybe some other things...
well.. if you are curious abt what CDS are.. they are actually called CROSS DISCPLINARY SUBJECTS... it means that we have to take another course from another school lah...
hai.. i dunno wat i wan to write lah.. like got nothing to write... u c lah.. i never even blog my own site... hai~~~ maybe tml... when i having my UIR lab.. i will write lah.. always during that lesson i have lots of inspiration to write a lot of things... hehehe...
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 8:55 PM
Friday, March 05, 2004
today i went out with my classmate. she takes me... just like some classmate. when her best buddy dumps her, she looks for me. you know how sad i feel to have a "friend" like that? i regard her as a good friend... shares with her all my secrets, etc... but i get in return is being her spare tyre. she feels that she is a spare tyre to her buddy... how about me? aren't i just one to her to? she says she is sad that she is treated that way. but i.... i bear with it for a semester already. she went on cold war with me cause her ex boyfriend said he liked me. but i was already attached at that point...! and for that i was scolded by her and her buddy for snatching her boyfriend...
she calls me out, like i am her guard, her dog. call and must come. i feel so sad. everytime when i need her, she will nevre be there for me... when i ask her out, she will just have to say "i dont feel like going out liao." and thats it. but for me, when i say that, she is unhappy and tell me that she is sad or something and i will rush out and pei her. she knew it that i will give in like that. i feeling so sad...
i am a human, i have feelings too. she says she feels sad that she has been taken as a spare tyre, but then i want to ask, has she spared a thought of how i feel? she just messaged me, ask me to check out the guy she like the display name on msn. why? cause her com spoilt and i am suppose to do that for her. how about me? my monitor is faulty too... i feel so used, but i still did it for her... i went to check the display name... and he is not online. i messaged her and tell her what his dispaly name was... lucky she is using singtel i can send net sms, else my bills are going to be wasted on her. i feel so sad.... she took her time to reply me... and ask me to check "his name dont have man u rules or whatever meh" i still replied her. why? i feel so used, so sad. my sister and MMR says she is pukable. they both dont like her, just like my best friend. they feel that she only makes use of me and "bully" me ... i feel so so so sad.
i want to tell her that i dont want to do these "stupid" jobs for her, but she is my friend. if i dont do it for her, she will be sad and unhappy. her best buddy has bang seh her and if i were to do that to her, i think i am terrible. yet on the other hand, i wish to tell her that i really dont like it, dont like the feeling of being made use...
if my SP boyfriend knows about it, he is going to blar his anger again. he cannot stand the idea of her treating me this way. i told my sister... my sister also doesnt know what to do. she thinks i am stupid to let her bully. she thinks that i can just ignore her and fight with her. can i? i dont think i can.... i dont want to stir up trouble in my class. my class is so... political? did i use the right word? i dont know... what should i do... .... my mum tells me to give her stupid excuses that my mum came out with, but they are not going to work.... no no no... how?? *SaD*
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 11:18 PM
Monday, March 01, 2004
hello~ it's my holidays today. dont be envious. i will be bored to death. have homework and homework... but well, people like me where will do homework right? hee.. Luckily my classmates are not planning to meet and do project on this holidays. else i will be so bored. so happy that i can slack at home. i really hope that i will have the chance to pack my things and make them a bit more neater... clean the house etc etc. hope it's not just say say only... hahahaha...
hmm... you have a four hour break on tues...? so long ah.. .the longest break i ever had was 2 hours and it was in last sem. so long long long time ago.
dont say le la.. you so sian to go to school... me too. i went to school on sat for accounts and i was late... exam and i am late... and happy happy... cause i was too kan jiong.. i didnt remember anything and there it goes... i left the paper blank. i think this is the worse subject i have in poly... hate it! haha... just kidding.. i really think i am prepared to fail it le... ahhh!
i need to go now... my friends all like shui chuan shui dao me like that one lei... haiz.. and where to? orchard again! haiz... will blog again tonight... now that i am so "free" hee...
will tell you more about MMR tonight! see ya!
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 1:36 PM
hello... even though my holidays have ended... i still feel that i am in a holiday mood.. hahaha... bad rite.. but then i have no choice... my mind juz cannot accept the fate that it is the end of the holidays and school have started.. hai... hope that this wk i will not get back any test papers... but then i doubt so lah... even say today n tml dun get back anything... by thursday should be able to get back some papers liao.. that will be my worst nightmare man... if thursday and friday get back the test papers.. it means that i will get back my macroecons, bus stats and bus accounting... my god!!! i think from these 3 the only 1 i will pass should be bus accounting.. the other two if i pass will be a miracle liao... hahahaha...
ya me watching the oscars rite now.. hehe.. never go for accounting lecture to watch the oscars.. hahaha... wonderful show man.. love it so much... hehe... lord of the rings has won most of the awards it has been nominated... hope that it is their year and they will win the big award... THE BEST FILM... hopefully.. i will be cheering for them... i think they deserved it... hahaha... well... now they are showing jack black n this guy singing.. so funny man... cannot stand them.... hahaha... if u all have the time.. u all should catch the repeat telecast man... really really really a wonderful wonderful show... hehe..
i also caught the last eposide of TAKUYA KIMURA jap drama - GOOD LUCK! my god!! he look so handsome in a pilot's uniform and the ending was so touching.. even though he didn't manage to be a captain by the end of the show.. he was still a first officer... hahahaha... he and his girlfriend is so cute also (in the show) hahahaha.... cannot stand the two of them... well.. i love the show so much.. that i wan to find the VCD and purchase it... so that i can watch it over and over again... hahaha...
okok.. i think that is abt all lah.. wan to go take my lunch and soon i have to go school liao lah.. hahhaa... muz leave hse at 1pm.. if not i will be late for my lessons at 2pm.. haha... and i hate that lesson man...:P:P:P:P
aww shucks - you found me! [+] 12:23 PM
